It’s been almost five months since I’ve become a mom and it still hasn’t gotten easier. I can’t believe I’ve known my babygirl for almost five Months because it feels like I’ve known her so much longer!
As I waited to meet Rylee the day she was born, I had so many questions swirling in my head – What would she look like? Would she have my hair color? My husbands eye color? Will she love me? Will she love country music or hip-hop? Will she love my cooking? But my biggest question was, Will I love being a mother? (the answer is totally Yes!)
There’s no doubt that the fear of becoming a new parent scares the hell out of you – especially the day you take your baby home for the first time. I was convinced that I would do everything wrong the first day we took her home, but here we are today!
For me personally; I think what really helped me overcome my fears of motherhood was knowing that there are so many women who can relate to the feeling and who do such an amazing job even when they don’t have it all together. Take my mother & mother-in-law for instance.. They were there for me every step of the way during my pregnancy and postpartum. They are the epitome of what a mom should be and I’m lucky I’ve got both of them!
I read a lot of blogs and watched a lot of inspiring videos of women during their journey to motherhood and it’s really great knowing that even when you don’t feel like the best mom, you’re doing the best you can and your child appreciates it.
I’ve learned that in the last four and a half months, I’m still scared. I get nervous when I’m not able to be home watching her all day, but I know she’s in great hands so I can’t really touch on that subject, but as a mom, fear and worry will always linger, but it’s how you handle the situation that matters.